Now, like seemingly every Gen-Zer out there, I vlog (Natalone on Youtube, the self-plug is real). I, however, vlog my studies and uni life so it has been a very interesting challenge to vlog during lockdown. It’s hard to vlog uni when you’re officially a student of Blackboard University.
Considering that my family isn’t the vlog type, I have been limited to filming countless Study with Mes. Now I personally love a good Study with Me but my audience might not. On one hand I want to keep people entertained but on the other hand, FUCK IT, I post what I want to post. This has been a very riveting internal dialogue for me these past few days. I have also noticed an interesting factor in my vlogs recently. I am so much quieter and timid when vlogging at home rather than at my commune. I think this definitely reflects the two different personas that I adopt at each place. It’s just so sad to me, though, watching my old vlogs and seeing how outgoing I was. I feel like I need to tone down my personality at home and honestly, that’s just not healthy. This is another struggle of living at home during lockdown.
I am fully aware that this is a first-world problem, however, that does not minimise the sheer intrigue of it. It is just so fascinating that one can become a completely different person when staying in a different environment than one is used to. I do feel better though, blogging because it allows me to express myself the way I want to, even if I can’t do it in person.
This has been the saga of the ambivert showing her inner introversion.
– Birdie
The Bluebird Circle 